Vine needs to be stopped
Spitted my whole water out, fam.
LMFAOOO
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(Source: purpflame, via the-8th-wonder-of-the-world)
Feeling better now.
He didn’t love me like how I love me and that’s that.
I will be okay.
GOD YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Charlamagne: Kanye’s a Walking Contradiction Now (by djvlad)
Uh oh…..
Sounds like he’s a walking Kanye hater
I love Charlamagne (most days). Can’t nobody tell me nothing about him.
you guys remember that cute skater guy that confessed to playing cello in high school musical?
he’s now a convict for armed robbery :-)
OMFG
shoulda stuck to the status quo
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I’m sorry you had to deal with that :( At least now you can begin to move on and learn from him so that you’re able to find that committed guy.
Thanks. <3 Time heals all wounds. I hope he finds somebody that wanted to fuck outside the relationship as much as he did.
Oh yall! and then he was like, oh well, you never told me you didn’t want me to go to Idaho so I felt like you didn’t care.
What?!?!
If all our differences were coming to a head what the fuck kind of girl friend would I be to tell you not to go somewhere where they are paying for you to go there?
I was trying to support you. Naw I aint want you to go. But I didn’t have any guarantee that we would be together. That GA position was guaranteed. How selfish would I be to tell you not to go? Especially with you all, “I don’t like to waste my time. I really see myself with you down the long road so if that’s not what you want to do, I don’t wanna waste my time.”
Well it’s over.
I said my piece and he said his.
As soon as my feelings heal I want to forgive him so I can move on. At least I never have to see him again.
And when I think about that convo, like if it was that to be that last time I were to ever talk to him, I would be fine with that.
Like, if I were to die tomorrow, and that was the last thing he ever heard from me, I would be fine with that. Because that’s how I feel.
When you think about calling or texting me, call or text whoever you was fucking with.
For real.
Nigga.
So, first, the pool was only open to summer school students. :( Kinda sad about that part.
Now about this conversation. It was longer than I thought it would be, but the outcome was the same. Him saying, “I have needs. Was I just supposed to sit around and wait for you? I did nothing wrong! I can’t understand why you don’t wanna be friends…” blah blah blah.
But during the conversation he said something like, “I’ve had thoughts about other girls, but I never acted on them. But I’m single and I wanted to live my life and blah blah blah…”
After the convo (I didn’t tear up on the phone! my voice cracked a bit tho) I realized the reason I was so hurt was because I would never do that to him. Ever ever ever. But of course he was like, “Well okay, but you and I are two different people.” This statement led me to believe that maybe I shouldn’t be with other people. Because when I was with him, dudes would holla at me all the time but I wouldn’t even give them the time.
Never once did I think about having sex with somebody else.
And I think that’s my downfall. My flaw. Maybe I “love to hard”. When I was with him, I only wanted to do things with him. Nobody else. And for him to tell me that he had the thoughts he just didn’t act on them…
Maybe I don’t need to be with another person. I’m pretty sure this isn’t uncommon. I’m pretty sure guys think about fucking girls that aren’t their girlfriends all the time right? Right? Then I’m not built to be with anybody.
The last thing I said to him was, “When you think about texting me or calling me, just text or call that girl you was fucking with. Bye Daquane.”
It felt mean coming from my mouth, but that’s how I felt.
I’m sure when I don’t care anymore, I will forgive him. Maybe?
I’m a mess. Please believe I stopped to the liquor store after this.
During that conversation I realized he hurt me. Really hurt me.
It made me realize you can’t trust people man. They will tell you one thing, and then do another, and then be surprised at your pain.
When I tell yall I will be single for a very very long time, believe me. I’m not built for it. I want to be with somebody that only wants to be with me and it appears that that will never happen.
Yall. I am so hurt.
I feel like i’m in elementary school saying my feelings are hurt. But it’s the truth. The tears are forming right now. Our relationship aint mean shit to you? Really? So why waste my time then? If you wanted to be with whoever, why not break up with me asap?
That line continuation, from the neck to the pinky nail, oh my gosh.
(Source: neuewave, via mentalexodus)
BRING THE NOIZE / WORLD PREMIERE / MONDAY JUNE 17 / 7PM ZANE LOWE RADIO
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ima have my last talk with my ex today.
I sent him a text that says, “Hey. This is Nikki. Call me when you get a chance.” We gonna say our last pieces and that will be it. The end of the Nikki & Daquane saga.
Nervous but ready.
On a brighter note…I’m going swimming today. This guy that works at the gym came to my job and I asked him if the pool was open and he said from 4 to 8 and this will be my only day to go so heck yeah.
I love deep pools. I love the feeling of floating around and being free. They also have a hint of danger which i like. And this counts as work out woot woot.
